My Dearest Carolyn

I feel a pain weighing down at my chest
It lingers for moments so I hold my breath
Wondering if this is what I think it is

It pulls me down
unannounced only to remind me

the descending of a friend

It leaves me, swiftly as it came

So I have to wonder

when will it come again

I put my hand over my chest
So as to console myself and will the sadness to end

But it only reminds me

of the impending reality

My dearest beloved friend
We can no longer create special moments
I don’t know what to say or do when I am with you
So I sit, I watch, I pretend as I sit beside your bed

I try my best not to cry
Empowering strength so you can gravitate
To endure what must soon take place
My dearest beloved friend

This is by far the longest goodbye ever
We have nothing else to share but each other
Everything is so not important
And while the world goes on doing
we do our best to remember

special moments but in silence

You work so hard to catch your breath

as I look toward calmness in your chest

I'm sorry that all I can do for you is keep you company

I'll remind you that this is not the end

remember that soon

there will be no more sorrowing or crying

no more pain

And so while we wait

we look to each other in silence and share a fake smile
for soon that will have it's own end

along with MY DEAREST BELOVED FRIEND

until we see each other again