Adrianna Lee

My BEAUTIFUL
daughter where did the time go? It was just yesterday that I brought you home from the hospital. You are 18 years old now and all done with school. I remember my life at your age and I must say that I am SO proud of you. For all the decisions you have made concerning your life, your goals & your future. I am honored and blessed to have you as my daughter. You have been the pillar in my life when things seemed that they were falling apart. Thank you for your smiles & for making me LAUGH when all I wanted to do was cry (Carolyn, my dad). Now you begin a new chapter in your life. I am so excited for you and I can't wait to see the woman that you will become. I love this picture of you because I see your grandpa Manuels' eyes in you. Value yourself & others will also. Always, always put Jehovah first & everything should go well with you. As mother and daughter we share a very beautiful relationship, like no other relationship in this world. As you continue to grow, I will try my best to be like a guiding light, making sure that you don't end up doing something that will harm you in your future. As you enter adulthood, I want you to count on me & my love. Remember that you can always depend on me as one of your closest friends and confidant. ~MOM

Grief

 Maybe you can understand that

The worst part of the day is

when for a brief moment

I actually think that

I can call my friend.

Then the mind & heart react

just as quickly

without a moment to miss

& the tears start flowing

as if waiting to burst out.

Sometimes I wipe the tears

before they reach the cheek.

Hoping no one can see the pain.

Other times

I let them run their course,

down my face they go.

What’s the point of holding it in?

even if I try to, I can’t

hold them back

keep them,

 from expressing

the void in my life.

Why can’t I reach out

and call my friend

Minnesota 2010

This is Marcos' trip to Minnesota on June 2010